Gagablog 54: "Oz Magic: From Radio to Gaga", 95.7 "The Party" Finally plays Applause for Denver, Pinnochio becomes a real boy

The book I have been working on for two years is called "Oz Magic: From Radio to Gaga" and I just watched Gaga's performance on GMA of "GAGA of OZ" and I know I have to focus on that and write it now, this is the perfect time because it is all coming true just as I have been predicting. I keep saying that I will have to suspend the Gagablog to focus on it, I've mentioned it in the last few editions I know, but seeing that performance where Gaga literally recreates Oz makes me realize I have to do it now, with no more delay. The main reason I'm writing this last edition, well 54 makes a "full deck" but I have to give credit to the 1st Denver pop radio station to finally play "Applause", 95.7 "The Party", and give credit to Gaga, myself, and the whole "Oz Magic" idea that I will be explaining fully in the book but this is a perfect, beautiful, loving, wonderful, magical,artful exmple of. I've been "waiting", for over a month it seems, for the radio to play "Applause" here - I'm ashamed I was not requesting it, I've never requested songs before that I remember, but I wanted to see if Denver could surprise me and be cool and play it as soon as possible, without any help - much of my recent gagablogs have included this angst that they play anything besides Applause, it just got more offesnive every day it went on, and showed how far behind "the times" Denver is - I always felt that way, culturally, we are kind of far away from the centers of creativity, which is ironic and probably changing quickly since we are on the forefront of legal weed. And it just reminds you of that whole "crowd mentality" that Applause is kind of a criticism of, that people can't decide for themselves if something is cool or good until other people tell them - that condition shows the lack of artistic sentiment in the community. But I came to an important magical realization, how I have been magically "holding us up" myself, not just by not requesting "Applause" on the radio, but by not requesting Applause for myself by really putting my best art out there. That is the whole magical "secret" I've been constantly talking about in this gagablog, how things are magically reflected between different levels of experience, personal, social, artistic, worldwide, and how we can use this to discover things and to work and play and make magic. When I say I want applause for myself, I mean it like Gaga means it, I want to get my art out there so people can connect with it, connect to art, to each other, to magic, to Gaga- and make them happy, make us all happy. Now I know "this is the time" because it is all coming together, but it was always the time and in one magical way I've been holding this whole transformation up. This is how the transformation is taking place for me in these last few days. I've had a vacation from work and finally edited a fantasy adventure book I wrote and finished 7 years ago, "Wendy the Witch School Drop Out". I'm finally ready to self-pulish it, getting over the last ideas I had to go through a publisher and get apporoval, support, the go-ahead. I never really tried that because weird things would happen with any option I ever actually considered. I've decided to do what I kind of wanted to all along, go with the merit of the book and word of mouth if it is really good, self-published through Createspace. Well, the day I finally got most of it edited was 9-17-13, and this was also the 1st day I heard Applause on the radio. It was a great day all around, and we were on our way to Chuck E Cheese for a birthday celebration and I turned the radio and heard the final notes of applause, just the sounds for the hand getsures. Even though I did not hear the whole song, it was a glorious moment to know they finally played it. It may be like a month or two late, but thanks to 95.7 "The Party" Denver finally entered The Future, and I knew that obsessively listening for it was no longer in vain. Radioplay has a special significance for me, as evidenced by the title of my new book. Since they "won" the contest with the other pop station, I now have loyalty for 95.7 - I'm still checking the other station but the longer they fall behind the less I will even give them a chance. This is the principle of Applause I need to learn for myself - I have to do it, really do the stuff I believe in and follow my dreams,if I expect it to be recognized and become real. It just "so happened" that they finally played "Applause" on the same day I finally finished most of my edits for a book I've held hidden for 7 years. Even if it was only 6 notes that I heard, it was great and fantastic encouragement - I heard the whole song the next day on "The Party", confirming my faith in them. The thing about "Applause" is that only just now, writing these things in this context and order, did I think about that as "Applause" for me, for working on my book, almost finishing it. But I always expected "Applause" on the radio to mean two important things, appreciation for Gaga that she deserves for being so awesome, but also applause for Denver, for the radio station, for us, for getting to appreciate it, for recognizing it. I think that is how Applause, in general, magically, always works two ways, and why perfromers even tell the crowd to give themselves a round of it. It certainly relates to how often Gaga credits her fans and gives them her spotlight - the whole thing is that of course you Applaud something you love, that effects you and empowers you an inspires you, but being the one who is there to Applaud is a special honor in itself, which is the applause for you, for the audience, and how anything that can create applause makes everyone involved better for it. This was a very direct message from Gaga in her interview portion of GMA, but let me come to that in the story as it happened to me, magically. The other way my life has been reflecting this whole transformation process is because I found a copy of "Pinnocchio" at the thrift store about a week or two ago - "some of us just like to read" and you have to read the real, whole story - it's awesome. Like Oz it is a lot richer than what people know from the movie version. The important point to make about it is that Pinnochio is always saying he will do good and promising the blue fairy and others who protect him, but keeps getting distracted or giving into temptations and transgressing, getting into all sorts of trouble that should teach him his lesson. All the time I am thinking "I am glad I am not like that, so much anyway" but at the end I realized how I really have been that bad, that naughty of a wooden-headed, heartless marionette. I just finished the book, I finished reading it the same night I finished editing my book, last night, the day after hearing "Applause" in full on "The Party". I also checked my email that day and saw that Gaga had performed "GAGA of OZ" and I was kind of awestruck, not ready to watch it, but pretty sure it meant "I can't wait any longer". And I realized this last night, at the end of "Pinnocchio". This was also, by the way, the day I got off my crutches and just have a boot on from breaking my foot. At the end of the story, and sorry for spoiling anything for those who haven't read it, Pinnocchio finally does what he says he will do instead of just saying he will. He finally is reunited with his father, Geppetto, and is taking care of him by working hard, both on a farm and making baskets. He finally is happy and secure, doing his duty, when he finds out that his blue fairy mother, who he thinks is dead (again) is actually alive and he works twice as hard, makes twice as many baskets, to help her get better, too. The result of all of this, when she gets better, he is rewarded by becoming a real boy and having a much better life. It all comes together for him, finally, and he has both father and mother after being lost from his father and only coming close to reuintiing with him, and finding his fairy mother again and again but not managing to be true to what she tells him and stay with her. It struck me that this was a parallel for my life, for that particular moment and day - this magical transformation. I realized that my finally getting my book out there after 7 years is like finally doing my duty - being reuinted with my father, the creative energy and spirit of inspiration, art and magic. And all along I have had my own vision of the Goddess, secret even to me, then she was revealed in Gaga and for the last 5 years I have had her, like the blue fairy mother, as a constant reminder and supporter and helper to do my real work, to make my art and write my books - i have been obsessed with ideas for "Oz Magic; from Radio to Gaga" for over two years but haven't written much of it down, just re-arranged it in my head adding ideas, because I say "I don't have time". But while I have always been saying I will create and make my art and wrting and songs reality, and saying I love and worship Gaga and want to follow her and be the best me I can be, realize my gifts, in her example, I have been like Pinnochio and only saying it over and over, not doing it. Now I have finally caught up to a duty to my own art that I have neglected for 7 years, and gotten my adventure book ready. That is like making 8 baskets that Pinnochio makes to support his father once he finds him and starts doing his duty. But I realize, after "GAGA of OZ" that it is like my fairy mother is in the hopsital - not that she is ailing,she seems in the finest form ever, but realizing that while I have always been saying I will honor how she inspires me and encourages me by making my art, I realize now is the time to actually do it, now is the time I have caught up to my normal duty, to write for the World, and found I can even honor the most magical and special duty of all to my fairymother with the azure hair who appears to help me in so many transformations, and that means working twice as hard on my art as finally doing my "regular" artistic dity, making 16 baskets a day instead of just 8, as Pinnochio did, even though he had only just started really making baskets a little earlier. So I woke up this morning knowing that, having gotten my "Wendy" book ready after 7 years, getting that "out of the way" from weighing on my mind and needing to be done, using my vacation time and being laid up with crutches to catch up to that duty, that all I had to do was write this gagablog and give "The Party" and everyone credit for Applause - this goes billions of times over for all you monsters tweeting it and requesting it and talking about it, trending it. All I had to do was write this, and publish my storybook while really starting on "Oz Magic: From Radio to Gaga." I knew I had to do it now, today, since having that realization last night that like Pinnocchio I can finally do my duty to my fairy mother, and also knowing via email that Gaga had performed something called "GAGA of OZ". We have really good kinds of bud right now and we were getting ready to write and my wife played the "Applause" video, out of the blue, though the song has been constantly stuck in my head for weeks and I love it. It had over 56 million views this morning, too - Applause to/for/from everyone! Then I asked her to go ahead and pull up "GAGA of OZ" and we watched it backward, the interview first then the performance, but I can't say enough how it was a dream come true, how it was everything I have been imagining, prediciting, and hoping for, like Gaga reaching out to me specifically and saying "Yes! You got it right, do it now, write!" It was the most amazing thing, most amazing coincidence, and so Gaga because even though I kind of knew, and really hoped it would really be something like that, she just fulfilled and blew away all my expectations and was perfect and amazing. Add I feel like I have been holding this secret how Gaga is making Oz real for all of us, waiting to write it in this book, and now I know that the time is really now, Gaga has taken us into the future and into Oz and it is just up to us to understand it and make it come true for more people. I know my role in this and always have but now is my time to act. This is how I will put my hands up and make them touch - not only by giving her my Applause, my artistic response, and showing I am with her, but by reaching out, creating things myself, touching the world with art that others might be inspired by and appluad themselves. When I actualy do my work instead of talking about it, I will become a Real Boy and have all I have been dreaming of. Now is the time to do it and I will conclude by saying that once again Gaga said it best, in her interview about "GAGA of OZ" on GMA, and the performance itself - it is all about using your talents, going for it and following your real dreams, "even if", especially if, those are to make art, to follow art on its magical Yellow Brick Road, the Glitter Way. Gaga tells us, passionately, that we can do this and is living the example of how it can be done - she is making this world a real Oz and we can all do parts to do that. My part is to explain it further in a book, and make art and songs about it, but the time for the book is now. I've always believed in myself, in Oz, in Gaga, in magic and art and love, and I'm ready to put it all together for others to read. Now the "GAGA of OZ" performance is like both a love letter of encouragement and a challenge to me - of course these magical ideas about Oz are true and are what Gaga is revealing, as I have always suspected, and she is saying "you are right, go for it!" or "meet me, show me your teeth!" - as she has always been saying but I've been a silly, a marionnette. And she is also saying "I'm making it so obvious that if you don't do it now, someone else will." I've been somewhat reluctant to even talk about this, to even name the book, for fear someone else would steal the idea and do it before I "had time." But now I know the time is now, I have to be working on this double-time because it is all coming true, Gaga is "taking" us to Oz, truly making us into our true selves, revealing our true, magical, Ozzite selves. It's time for me to stop predicting and start making it happen, in my way, so thank you for putting up with all this teasing preliminaries and my getting ditracted from my greatest duty for years, but now I'm ready to bring it all together and become a real boy. I see the magical parallel of the strange moment when Pinnocchio, the boy, wonders what became of the puppet he used to be, and Geppetto points out the wooden puppet propped up, its legs folded beneath it. That seems to be a parallel to two things in my room right now. One is my crutches I don't need anymore, that I used for the last time before having this transformation where I will really do my work. They are like the puppet I left behind, the old self who was lazy and only talking about it, not doing it nearly enough. The other thing that is like that puppet, my old self, left behind is this gagablog. Yes, it is a good record of who I was like Pinnochio is a good story about his troubles before he became real, just like the Wizard of Oz is a great story about getting to Oz the first time and making that transformation. But then, like Gaga made the dream come true with "GAGA of OZ", there is realizing we are there, the family is reuinited now that we've rescued the father by finally being dutiful and redicovered the fairy by finally living up to the love she gives us, and now it is just time to do it, to make the art out of the sure bliss of knowing we are supported and loved. And while much of it has been focused on Syria and wishing for a magical surprise that turned things around, I'm pleased to say that it may be late-seeming but actually happened, finally, hopefully. The reason I have to write "Oz Magic: From Radio to Gaga" is because there is the whole world of OZ, and other characters, in the 16 or 17 other books after "The Wonderful Wizard of Oz". I have been living the magical priciples I've discoverd in them and then I have been seeing them fulfilled and realized in the world around me and lately especially in Gaga. I know we are all going to become more aware of it, Gaga is revealing it, but I know I have s epcial undertsnding from being focused on it so long. I know I have a way of bringing the ideas of Oz, art, technology, magic, and Gaga together in a way that will really help people and increase their enjoyment of this transformative time. Now is the time to do it and of course, as always, Gaga says it best and simplest in her interview, so please watch that and take it to heart - we can all live best, in Oz, if we live by following Art. It is magic, it is real and it becomes real when we believe and follow where it leads - this is the essence of what I call "Oz Magic". So far we are mostly afraid to live for art, for magic, because there is just a lack of love felt in the world, but Gaga shows us how to make up for that and show love more, too. I'm coining the term "Oz Magic" but I think it is something mystically created that has always existed, is basically the purest magic which is also love and art, and took on a special form through L. Frank Baum writing the Oz books - they were like a prediction or vision of something emerging, and Gaga is the actual emergence, though it will take place in all of us, all over the world, in our hearts. It's like love waking up all over the world, it is magic and it is real and it is all specially predicted and described by things in the Oz stories. I'm not even sure how much Gaga knows about the other stories of Oz, but it is all truly coming from the same place of fairy magic that has been true forever, though misunderstood in many different ways. I hope I can contribute that special part to increase understanding and show how this journey to Oz, Gagaism and being little monsters, is not only a legitimate spiritual path, since I got my degree in religions and can really see that aspet of it, but that it is one of the best paths that really connects things from all over the world and throughout human history because of the ability to include and encourage everything. Gaga really says it well and it is a key secret we need in the world, to honor diversity and encourage everyone to explore and go for their unique gifts, then when we are all doing the best of being who we really are, bravely without fear of judgement or meanness, we will really have the world that is perfect for having the best of everyone working together. I have always called this Oz and been waiting for us, using new technology like "magic" and rediscovering and using all other kinds of magic, that all of this will come together. I see now that, thanks to Gaga, the Oz part won't be a secret anymore and I love Oz so much I am so happy she will bring it back more than any spin-off movie, because people will look at it magically, artistically, and rediscover what I have been looking forward to talking about for years- and I know all of this will be making it come true more and more, until we are all truly in paradise, in Oz as I call it. I'm ready to go for it, to do my part, like "The Party" finally earned Applause for Denver and made us cool. I encourage everyone else to do their part too, to discover their true art and or magic and go for it, follow it. I will now take Gaga's advice, both general to everyone to go for it and what I feel is magically a personal signal to me, to really go for it, as the smell of delicious weed puntuates the air as my lover opens the jar as I type this. It's time to "make it real loud", to really go for it - and the way I misunderstood it before, "make it real - NOW!" is also true, and I'm going to really go for it, focus, and by becoming a real boy show the world how my belief is true, that Oz is real and we can live there, it can be here, and Gaga is the purest example of how. I love you so much, Gaga, and monsters, for making this all happen, for making all my dreams come true. I will now do my own part to make it real, and I hope it makes you happy, makes Gaga happy, and takes us to Oz, and earns the honor of Applause, helping connect us all with art, magic and love. Thank you, Gaga - as Dorothy, as the Witches, as the Apple Tree, as the Wizard, as Ozma (sssssshhhhh! all will be revealed!) - you create all the Applause and all this love is for you, it will all come together and transform the whole world just as you have transformed yourself by following it and show us how we can do the same. We love you, Gaga, thanks for making Oz real and we are with you, doing our parts to make the journey and make it real for the whole world, to reveal how full the world is of love and art and magic. Paws up, you showed us how to be brave, ignited the courage and love and intelligence we always but had left hidden, like the Wizard or Good Witch within us, and showed us how to be home, to ultimately make our home with you in Oz! (I need to finsih that Wizard of Oz themed Gaga song i wrote a year or so ago, right before I finally finsished "Made me a Monster" - I think it was a different attempt to finish it....)

Gagablog 53 - No More Weapons! Peace and freedom - thanks Obama and Gaga!

I don't think I have ever wrtitten two Gagablogs on the same day - technically it is "tomorrow" now, 3:45 AM on 9-10-13. But I got ahead of myself and got some things wrong in the last edition, like the fact that congress has not voted on Syria yet, my friend misreported that to me, and want to try and say it all more simply, clearly, and quickly now. Of course Gaga always says it best, but I won't try to relate this much to Gaga, other than to say she is impossible to keep up with - this is part of the nature of being what I call "from the future", she has that connection to the ideal future we are enetering that shows us the way, and gives us glimpses of what it will be like all the time, like slipping back to that future, perfect time. But I think of myself as "from the future", too, or "from Oz" as I call it, though I spend too much time trying to talk about this stuff from this side instead of assuming anyone would understand based on Oz terms - but my new book should help with that, help others get the Oz understanding. My last edition was an attempt to compare the waiting for Artpop for the waiting for a decision on whether to take a military strike against Syria - the first, Artpop, is "inevitable" a magical destiny that will transform us. The second, the military strike, has been presented as "inevitable" or necessary in different ways but it is not, it is not "destiny" just a likely outcome of a course of events - but based on previous courses that we should have learned better from, not be eager to repeat. And this time of "waiting", before we "take action" is magically special, because we can avoid it. We can't avoid the transformation Artpop will provide to our culture and psyche -we need it, it's way due, and we are ready for it, to make the most of it, to live up to the full promise of Art - it wlll save the world. But there has to be a world to save - we can't blow ourselves up before Novemeber - we should not ever be ready or in a position to do this, but unfortunately we have been for far too long and have not outgrown that mentality - but we are about to. So all I am saying now to connect this to Gaga is that Artpop is coming out, we have already heard about half of the songs from it, and it is coming true, the cultural revolution Gaga is predicting. We can try to ignore it, or focus on less important things like Miley Twerking, but while Miley said she knew she would "make history" by doing that, she made some sort of effect on the history that is determinded by twitter, in the moment, but the actual Future will look back on the History of it as the 1st performance of Applause wonder at why society focused so much on Miley. But artpop is a transformation that we need, that is our fate, and it is exciting wating for it. By contrast, attacking Syria has been "in the cards" for years but so far had not been drawn, yet it really seemed to be at the very top of the deck this week. This whole time I've always advocated, worked magic, for a "special surprising event" that would provide a peaceful out to this whole situation, and anticipated that the solution could become a model for solving all problems in the world - all the while I think there was an idea hidden back there that governements and the UN could start acting responsibly, live up to their purpose. I think the new development that America, Russia, and apparently even now Syria agree that they should just give up their chemical weapons is such a "magical, surprising development" and it shows how far off-base we were that we did not have more faith, and make more progress, in this way before. I believe Obama that it was the foreseeable threat of military strikes that prompted this breakthrough, but I want to say that the "threat" is not the same thing as using force. The only thing I'm comparing to Gaga here is the inability to "keep up" with a story that is moving at light-speed - and anything like this moves that fast because it is catching us up from barbarism to the fast-track to paradise. Its like trying to keep up with Gaga - I have no idea what she is up to now, but throughout this gagablog I have tried to anticpate what she would do and mean and what significance that would have on world events. I do this from my own intuition more than really knowing what she is up to and all the statements she has made, because everyone I hear fits in with these ideas. I do this from the idea that we both are "coming from" and representing that same truth of a love world earthly paradise that is right around the corner for us, ready for us as soon as we are ready for it. It's a non-violent world, a world without violence. And it is not only possible, it is necessary, and it makes things easier to understand when we look at it as part of this path to the non-violent future. I can't wait to find out what Gaga is doing now, next, and make some more connections, but the connections I want to make now are between the use of force and weapons by nations and the use of force and weapons by individuals. Obama is using the threat of force appropriately, knowing it does not have the same or even as much power once the threat is carried out. The ability to use force should, at worst, be a possible "threat" - but I'm going to go completely non-violent here and hope people can follow it. The natural consequences of global warming are threats that we want to avoid, but they are real - we are really messing up the planet in a way that will come back and destroy us, bit by bit or in whole huge sections. This is a threat and one we need to respond to. If you are mean to your lover, you might end up breaking up -this is a threat we need to respond to. These threats are real - just like Artpop is real, a lesson we will learn that we desperately need. even if we ignore it, the lessons are there and will continue to come up until we benefit from them. This is the natural way of things - some things are bad and have bad natural consequences, some things are good and have goo,d glorious natural consequences. But then there is the threat of "unnatural" consequences, of violence. Violence is the tool fo the weak against the powerful. The weak use weapons and violence to affect things they don't have the natural power to control - this is why so much violence is the fault of men and why there is so much sexual violence and domestic abuse. Women are sexually in control, in power, naturally, and resenting that power men have resorted to violence, economics, and patriarchy to take power over sex for themselves. If someone is "right" or "just" then the truth will set them free and be proven to all eyes, but people resort to violence if they "can't wait" for that and insist they are right. It is as Jesus said, blessed are the poor and meek and peacemakers - because theirs is the true power, the greatest power there is, the power of love. We have gone on some perverted courses, humanity has, and nations in particular, but we are all basically doing the same thing, making the same mistake. Because there are things out of our control we have resorted to violence to try and control them, but it only works temporarily, and really does not work at all. The threat of force is not the best way to motivate people, appealing to good nature is. As I said many gagablogs ago, the best way to get someone to disarm is not to yell "Drop your gun or I'll shoot!" it is to say "look, I threw away my gun so you don't need yours." The idea is that we can't trust the other person, we can't be the one to throw down the gun first, because what if that person is "off", is not on the same page of decency, and decides to shoot you once you drop your gun? I mean, they have a gun, after all, what does that say about them? I can't put muy gun down until I know they will submit to my will, etc( but then again, why did I have agun in the first place?) I can't get over the statistic that the police in Germany, total, fired like 87 shots in one year, while American police can fire 87 shots into one "suspect." But the main reason I want to make this about guns is that is is the essential solution to Syria - disarm - but the princple applies to all weapons, at all levels, held by nations or individuals. We don't need weapons. The only idea why we even pretend we need weapons is to "deal with that one crazy person" who wouldn't throw their own gun down when you tell them they don't need it, show them they don't need it. But there are other ways to deal with that crazy person, just like there are other ways to deal with crazy governments. But it is the existance of the weapons in the first place that provide a huge measure of the craziness - would Assad have done some of these things to begin with if he did not "beleive" in the power of chemical weapons, to devestate, to terrorize? But of course using them could not work out as planned because it is no way to act. But the same is true of all weapons. While we still have the craziness of weapons, and how they make people crazy and make regimes crazy too, we might need to continue to have that "threat" in order to affect people who still believe in violence - but we should always be able to avoid having to actually carry it out, we are advanced enough for that. "Violence" the threat of violence, is only useful for scaring crazy people - but we don't even punish crazy people, we treat them. SO the first step is removing the waepons, and while I fully believe in leading by example and getting rid of our own weapons, as long as some weapons exist there will be people motivated by them. So not only should Syria turn over its weapons to be destroyed, we all should. Not just chemical weapons, all weapons. We don't neeed them, really and we never really did. They create the problems they claim to "solve" and we can get rid of them all without any negative consequences. Kang and Kodon won't invade if we don't have a big enough board with a big enough nail, I promise. If we can trust each other, and never imagince we will "Have to" kill each other, we will never be in that situation, and we will find other ways out of any conflict that seems like that sort of situation. I guess people have used weapons to defend themselves - but against whom? I love the story fo the Buddha giving up his body to the hungry tigress to feed her cubs, when others might think of "self-defense" in that situation. Chemical weapons aren't cool, they don't make anyone think you are cool, and if even having them makes you an asshole, using them makes you a super asshole -but you are already an asshole for having them. The same is true for guns - why do you need them? Are you really suck a jerk you expect to have to protect yourself with lethal force, or so greedy you think you have to protect your stuff that way? More deeply, what do you distrust so strongly about your fellow man that you want the power to kill him? Does that distrust and unsettled feeling about other humans make you the safe user/owner of a gun? If you want a gun because someone esle might be unstable and also have a gun, well, could n ot someone who is more stable than you percieve you, and your gun as an unstable person who might need to be defended against? It is just a mess of fear and inadequacy and it is wrong. A gun does not make you man, or a person, and if you aren't feeling enough like a person from interactions with other people then that is what you need to focus on, not being able to shoot them. The reason this comes up for me now is 3 recent news stories. A 3-year-old girl shot and killed herself in Yellowstone, the first gun death there since like 1978 - because no one needs guns in Yellowstone, I guess. But why do people need guns anywhere? A boy here in colorado shot and killed his best friend and mentor, a really pretty 18-year-old girl, when she jumped out of a closet to surprise him - he thought she was a burglar so of course he had to shoot her. And the news today is that George Zimmerman was threatening his estranged wife and her dad with a gun - and we have her paniced, fearful for their lives call to the police office, but she did not press charges when they arrived. This gets into so many isses, and I agree with Chris Matthews (former host of Up!, I think that is his name) that having a gun changes the dynamics of any altercation. Zimmerman has visited the gunmaker who made the gun he shot Trayvon with, and he has become a symbol of injustice and fear and the tragedy of guns, while Trayvon has become a civil rights symbol of justice and truth and goodness. Zimmerman threatening his wife with a gun is a very scary prospect in itself, simply for echoing what is the situation for what I believe are the majority of murders in this country, domestic violence, people murdering their spouses or girlfriends or boyfriends. But what makes it even worse are the Zimmerman specific details, that he was taunting them to approach the car, as if that would give him the right to shoot them. That is the lesson he learned from getting away with murdering Trayvon - he can murder anyone he gets his car close enough to. The truth is, he shouldn't have a gun. Syria shouldn't have chemical weapons. Not JUST because they are Syria, but no one should have chemcical weapons. And no one should have a gun. No one should have weapons at all, and the only use for them from now on is to give the worst ones to the most responsible people, to bring them to bear on others who still hold their little one, until they can all be collected and destroyed. That's right, crazies, we're gonna get your guns. Obama won't have to take them, the UN will collect - they'll send a bulletproof drone so don't even bother fighting back. But they will only do that to the most intractable crazies because everyone else will fllow the example and just give them up willingly. I've learned a few things from the news about this who mess - Lybia gave up their chemical and nuclear weapons program voluntarily, in response to pressure, but in order to rejoin the world community in good standing. We should expect all countries to follow suit, including America. Time to start disarming, not just nuclear and chemical weapons but everything. Its the way forward, the right thing to do, and we will haev such inceedible benefits from giving up war and violence that it will save the world. I also learned that a conservative editorialist in the Wall Street Jounral said that the whole affair is fullfilling Obama's clever plan to reduce AMerica's military strength and influence in the world. Of course he was scared by that, he is probably well connected, at least ideologically as a conservative, to the military industrial complex, but I was just like "right on! I hope so!" His wording in the editorial was that Obama's actions would reduce AMerican power more than his wildest dreams. The newsanchor on MSNBC reporting on it said it was laughable, like a satire of conserrvative criticism, but I can agreew ith it with full praise for Obama - while even that complaining editorial did not realize how true it really is, and certainly does nott appreciate how good it really is. It is time to stop being the world's policeman, not because we don't need some authority and rules in the world, but because we can trust the whole of humaity and diversity of nations to make that rule fair and just, we can do this all together. We don't need these guns to win, we are lovers - lets insist it's our life! I love how it was a "mistake" or mistatement from Secretary of State Kerry that opened up the possibilty for avoinding war - that magical turn I was playing for. I hope it works, that Assad disarms, that the whole thing goes to show Obama went about it the right way, and even that he will get authorization but be able to avoid using it. This will show the way to the ideal future, because we will have natural consequences we need to deal with as the whole worrld, together, such as global warming, and we can't waste time, resources and lives on problems we keep making for ourselves, enforcing our own consequences. We face big consequences for what we have already done, naturally, and we need to start working together. Weapons, from now on, should only be uysed to collect other weapons, and even for that there are better ways than force, than actually using force. We are finding one now, and I love it that a peaceful path is emerging despite all projections, and it shows the truth that those who are so eager for war are criticzing Obama when he apparently has plenty of power to decide but is holding that power over them to make something happen by motivating Syria instead of using power to force people to do things. It shows greater stregth to hold power back than to let it go, and can have much better effects, especially when it is the kind of power based on violence and fear. There is no ultimate reality to fear, love is the opposite of fear and it is real, fear only seems real and is a bad motivator - it gets things done sometimes but not by improving them. Buy contrast, love, seeking trust and goodness in each other, is real and will always prevail. We should know this and seek it out eagerly, and beware anytime we feel inclinned to violence -that is always a sign that we need better and more communication. Tolerating violence turns us all into Zimmermans, leading us to feel justified to kill others, which is never justified. We can start living up to these ideals and we will find that they get easier and easier, just as following Gaga becomes easier and easier the more you do it, becuase you realize how close we really are and always have been, how important that connection is and how insignificant the barriers are to it by comparison. Like I say in my song "Welcome to China": "the heart is an open door, all that's between us is 'you' and 'me'" I love you Gaga, thanks for showing us what we can be - I'm going on vacation soon and hope to return the favor to you, in my special way. Thanks, and thanks Obama - I got a little worried but I think its all going to work out, thanks to your skillful means as well as magical "accidents", and we will have more plowshares than we will know what to do with!

Gagablog 52: Artpop? Peacespell, Magical day, 9-9-13

How do I know this is an extra-magical day? I've just been expecting it since it is a cool date, 9-9. I know I'm not the only one who thinks of things this way, I honestly think we all do, in some ways, it's a natural human trait. Magical people think of it even more, that is, if you are more aware of thinking of special dates you are more inclined to get into or understand magic. I know Gaga plans things around the significance of dates, I don't know too many examples though I bet there are many – I seem to recall I had some chaos magicians staying with me around the time Born This Way came out, and it seems like it was released on 5-23, which they said was the most particular chaos date, the numbers 5 and 23, specifically. But I might not be remembering that right, I just don't want to bother checking. That Elie Goulding song is on the radio, which I really like...but why isn't it Applause? Denver!!.... I seem to recall that Artpop is scheduled to drop 11-11-13, another obvious magical date to anyone with eyes or that sort of thing. Oh, ha ha, I'm laughing at myself from a couple of years ago.... I guess I should explain, divulge, that I have only ever always been anticipating and trying to manifest a world-transforming change – that is what I have essentially been all about, all my life, since I was a kid anyway, which is why I almost immediately recognized Gaga as my “savior” - my example, and one I could hold up to the whole world, as the example that anyone could follow to help us all enter paradise, on earth. I would call her my own personal Jesus after that depeche mode song (and I do on youtube, google “youllis” and also check out my first song for her “Savior Mom” and others) and she is that personal, but also for everyone, obviously. Well, for everyone who can handle her, love her, accept her and the love of all people that she represents. What I want to say here is the world will change, it has been preparing for this transformation for years, decades, but there is a specific point, a specific date, at which it will magically transform: you could say it is “today” and maybe for you it is, in fact It most certainly IS “today”, because whatever day it occurs will be a “today” when it happens, just like every day is. While I am certain of the power of certain dates, just as we can look back on certain dates in history and say “everything changed” in some sense, at some point in time it is That Day. 11-11-13 will certainly be a day in which everything changes, in social, art, revolution sense, but it could also be that most magical day when everything changes in a whole new way. I think of the magical significance of that number 11, and 11-11, the significance so many people have felt when they see it on a digital clock, for instance, and I think it has some meaning in starseed lore or something. To me, I think of the Tarot, and how in so many images there are columns – like on the High Priestess card in the traditional Rider-Waite deck. These columns represent a gateway, a transformation. I want to avoid the longest ramble, again, in this gagablog, and I think I missed one of the main things I wanted to say in the last one, but maybe it fits better here. Um, monsters? Do you remember how it felt, how you felt, before Applause came out? The anticipation, the waiting? A while ago,, the longing of knowing it would be a while, imagining the seasons between yourself and the new Gaga songs? Even that is a good feeling, a special feeling. Another special feeling is the anticipation of a new release right before it comes out. Lana Del Rey's “Summertime Sadness” is on the radio again, and I'm glad to hear it, I can see why see is such a favorite among monsters I know on facebook, she has a sweet voice, it reminds me of The Smiths “There is a Light That Never Goes Out.” But why isn't it Applause? Oh, Denver, poor Denver – rich as can be in weed and mountains, so no complaints, but really, Denver? No “Applause”? And now they are calling “Headband” quote “brand new music”? Why? It makes me mad in a way that makes me laugh at myself – I am assuming they get plenty of requests for “Applause” but I'm really ready to hear it....for the First Time....on Denver Radio. There's like two big pop stations here, neither of them have ever played it as far as I can tell, I should check the play lists – but it's a race to be the first and it started like, 2 or three weeks ago or more? I mean, Really! Denver! And I changed and am hearing “cooler than me” - it's like everything Old is WAY older since it isn't Applause and everything new does not seem new since it is not Applause It makes me mad in a way that makes me laugh at myself and I just want to request it – but also look forward to one of these stations winning the race and being the coolest, but so far, no luck for them or me. My point is that it is special to be waiting for something like that, anticipating it, and as Gaga shows for all of her events and performances, the excitement leading up to it is incredible, it really is one of the most powerful and exciting feelings, the hours and moments leading up to whatever Gaga is about to do next, and then the power of experiencing her perform is infinitely greater than that, even, it makes you feel so overwhelmed and overcome and connected to that same feeling in other people, in people around the world – you can just feel the level of excitement and a place in it, and it is an amazing harmonious experience. You don't usually feel that overcome with excitement, I know I completely lose any composure I have when I even think about meeting Gaga, I don't even feel like a person anymore, much less like “myself”, but I feel the huge rush of energy and connection to others feeling the same way. It is like a psychedelic experience of getting beyond the personal ego, but without any of the possible scariness of feeling out of place, it feels completely natural to feel this way around Gaga, or watching her perform, even on youtube. We watched a video of her the other day and it will be the subject of my next gagablog – she gave us all chills. I'm sure it is a well-known performance, but we had never seen it before and it had the same effect on us that it did on Howard Stern, on everyone. Well, as special as it is to wait for something, sometimes that in itself is scary, sometimes the thing you are waiting for it not good. Rihanna's “Stay” is on, and I still debate if I should youtube my own, changed version – “stay away” - but this does take a scary turn, and before it does, I want to say how sweet it was that on Animal Crossing my lovely phone fortune hotline was “today your favorite artist will release a new song” on the day of Swinefest.... when I think how magical that is, Animal Crossing is so peaceful. The thing I never managed to say in the last Gagablogs, I don't think, was how important it is that Obama sent the decision to attack Syria to congress. I have been hoping and pondering what possible solution there could be for Syria ever since the protests began and the war started there, it has taken place in many of the latest gagablogs I've written, and of course I am focused on a magical solution – see my youtube video “Violence” a spell to end all violence. I guess the idea is that a change of heart can come from either side of a conflict and they can feel ashamed for resorting o violence and seek to make tings better. I know this can happen and I've been hoping, intending, writing, and working my magic to find some clever, surprising, peaceful end to this. And it may just be bigger than this, it may ultimately be a test for the UN to live up to its purpose and really change world dynamics. Because the truth is there are many who profit from America being the world's policeman, they make money from it or gain power by being able to influence America's military decisions and use it to their own advantage. If the UN can become the worlds policeman so that America does not “have to” so that America can stop acting like it, then things can get much better because “enforcement” won't be as likely subject to these certain forces. Haha , I want to brag about “figuring this out” to everyone in the house, we are all caring people and want an end to the tragedies in Syria and also want to avoid getting into some sort of World War 3, but what I was originally getting at is that this is a magical time before a “gateway”, just like waiting for Applause was a magical time before a gateway we passed through, into a whole new world, and waiting for 11-11-13 will be anther period before a gateway. “Get Lucky” is a pretty good song and I decided to finish typing this while it is on instead of going downstairs, on crutches, telling everyone what I'm thinking and possibly organizing the ideas better – it's a nice song, over now, and and old Ice Cube song is on, “Check yourself before you wreck yourself” - and it is good, too, but why aren't either of them Applause? My point is we are waiting on the “before” side of another magical gateway, the decision to attack Syria, supposedly taking place today or tomorrow, and waiting before the magical gateway of actually attacking Syria. I hope you can tell from the way I am typing this, from the way I am comparing these things, that “magical gateway” does not always mean a good thing, a positive future for going through that gate, and we don't have to go through certain major transformations, certain such gates. OK, going to pick up some weed, be right back to finish this. Well, I had a few more minutes, tried to finish this, and ended up erasing what I was saying...basically, everything, every event, is a magical gate, some bigger and more transformational than others. The best ones, the really good ones, like 11-11-13, art pop, we will certainly go through, altogether, a worldwide change, they are destiny, the best opportunity for the best change – and even these we all go through in our own ways, of course monsters will be the most affected by the release of Artpop but the whole world will feel the magical ripples of this glorious, wonderful event. A worse event, by contrast, is the horror of war. It is something we do not have to go through, despite forces that seem to be taking us that way. Since writing a “similar” paragraph to this, we were smoking the last bowl I had in anticipation of getting more (one “difference” in the original paragraph is I started with saying how nice it is to feel so reliable about the period before the magical gateway of getting more weed, when you really expect it will happen, as we do now in CO since it is legal, and sometimes caused anxiety when it wasn't, and especially in GA where they were always more oppressive about it. ) and I learned that the congress voted against military action. I can't claim I knew this, but it fits in with the plan I was just discovering, how Obama has used their hatred of him, be it racist or ideological or paid-for by companies whose interests he threatens, but he is using their hatred against them. Getting republicans to vote against war? That is quite a trick! And if it looks morally week on their part and morally strong for Obama to come out the way he did, well that is appropriate. I'm not saying the Syrian people should be sacrificed to make a point in American politics. The problem is that America formed the mujaheddin in Afghanistan to fight Russian occupation there when the Soviet Union invaded there, and American money armed the resistance - there's a movie about it, Charlie Williams War or something - and also fostered this violent, terrorist aberration of “Islam”. Having done that, and so many other things, we are faced with repercussions of that, the continuation of those same evil forces. But if we can't own up to how our own process, our own flaws as a nation, created so many of these problems in the first place, if we continue to fight and deny responsibility and just try to destroy the ones who have been affected by our mistakes – it's like we treat the whole world like Bush treated New Orleans in hurricane Katrina – put everyone in a superdome and if they die there will be no one to complain. What kind of attitude it that? We need to take responsibility and get as many people involved to take the most responsible action. I hope that this was all skillful means by Obama, he used the right-wing being so outraged at everything he did, and the media's appetite for outrage, to pull a trick on us. Now, this won't really be true if, now that the vote is through, Obama wants to “flex his muscles” and go through with a strike, just to show what the fuck he can do and end war in Syria, but maybe start it in other places. But I just had the insight, before knowing how the congress voted, that he was planning on a “no” vote, that he was planning on looking like the one out for war, just to keep the republicans divided and have the moral high ground, but he does not truly believe that it should be up to America to act unilaterally in these situations – and even though that is the threat, that he can go through with a strike whether approved or not, he is using that as a way to keep pressure until the UN can act, and in the meantime if the Assad regime is emboldened, it only makes more evidence against them internationally. I do believe they will be completely isolated if we don't attack, I also suspect that other reports could be true, that is is a rebel faction that mishandled a chemical weapon, as AL Jazeera and others have reported, or I suspect they were attacked and it went off, and that is why America has evidence of rockets going to the area. But in the usual rush to war, the details can't come out. It may turn out that Assad used the chemical weapons and we can actually galvanize all international pressure, once proven, to end the atrocity and also end anyone elses capacity to do that or similar acts. It is too bad that, if that is the solution, it is taking so long and seems like it will take even longer, but if it does and we finally get it right, and get the UN working right, then we can work on being able to do it faster and more responsively in the future, once we believe it can actually be done. I am truly hoping that Obama is tricking everyone and is not about to order a strike on his own, but will be glad to look like the “wavering clown” who can't make a conclusive decision if that draws the attention to him, while the whole process allows a new solution for war to actually be used, I supposed for one of the first times. Once we believe in the UN, in its ability to act justly and in its power to actually do what needs to be done, I'm sure we will find ways to fix other problems there. The beautiful trick of Obama is that the people who profit from war always want war, it is their business, but in this case he could be setting the precedent to allow the UN to take over, just as he is setting the precedent for government to make decisions together and have checks and balances on what is often controlled by military and corporations, or wealthy, shady individuals. I truly think Obama has a respect for the constitution that, while he knows the presidency has developed the power to have its own wars without the congress declaring them, he is trying to restore the spirit of democratic government where the people have more control over such important issues. This is especially important after we were misled into such awful war by Bush, but that was only the extreme of a terrible trend that had been developing for decades. Obama's decision could open a new pathway for us, one that considers peace again and again before resorting to war. I don't think Obama loses any power by holding attacks as a threat instead of actually carrying them out – even as I write that, my friend came upstairs with the news that Putin made the deal that if Syria hands over all chemical weapons there won't be an attack, and Obama has agreed to this. Still waiting for Assad's response, that next magical gateway all on this same magical day, but I am hoping he has the best response and agrees and we move towards peaceful resolution, especially after taking that option off the table. Assad himself seemed to imply that the only threat of chemical weapons being used is if they were stolen – but why have them at all if you are too civilized to use them? Just so no one else will want anyone bad enough to use them to unthrone you? That does not make any sense, but the same logic ultimately applies to any kind of weapon, chemical or not – why have them? If the only reason to have a weapon is expecting to use it, aren't you avoiding the chance to come up with non-violent alternatives, especially when you consider that the time you consider using violence is when you are threatened and aren't thinking well – a girl here in CO was shot by her friend, and killed, when she jumped out of a closet to surprise him as a joke. Why did he even have a gun? There aren't even many robberies in CO, hardly. But when surprised, he killed her, It was an accident, but one that didn't need to happen. Let's hope that an attack on Syria is not an accident that does not need to happen, or if it is that we can avoid it! That is the beauty of finding any way to contemplate violence before doing it, because ultimately violence is never the answer. If the Assad regime had used the threat of its military power, instead of actually using it, against protest, it would have some legitimacy, but it lost it by killing people. We can be the “bigger” party and look for a better solution than violence. I think Obama may have played this cleverly, a real genius ploy, to take on the mantle of War in order to make people question war who never usually do, to let the congress take power back it used to have but has lost, but ultimately to empower the American people to feel like they have influence. How does that work? We see all the polls, and hear analysis of it, but public opinion does not actually decide things, just influences them. Having all the discussion and debate about Syria, and having the traditional threat of military response but now with the public suspicious and weary of war, and congress split for once along non-partisan lines, we have a very unique opportunity for debate that makes everyone feel more empowered. It is very different than the Bush wars, by either Bush, or even the many times Clinton used the military, when we were basically just told how it was all going to go down. I really think this is the gateway that will lead to more citizen involvement and community decisions, including the world community coming together for the best good of all. I think this is being proven by Russia showing a path that all should be able to agree upon, while all along we have been calling them, or they have been, the main power opposing action against Syria. But this proves my point that we can have trust in human nature, in the Syrian people to form a better government and for other governments to act in accord with growing sense of global community and responsibility. Another magical thing about today is protests that were held worldwide to send a message to Russia to change their homophobic laws, or was that yesterday? But you can see how from all sides we are coming together in more and more ways and being responsible to each other. It is wonderful, if sad, that we are learning to work together in the face of the use of terrible weapons, when really we need to be able to work together to address the global issue of climate change and would have needed to do this even if we had ended war before. But the truth is we can end war, all war, and from then on we can stop military spending and pursuits and use our money and ingenuity toward better, more adventurous and beneficial ends. I'm hoping Obama's handling of Syria has managed to kick this new dynamic of working together into action, with consensus and taking all opinions into account. I'm hoping that it will lead to a world of peace, ultimately, as I have been predicting throughout this blog – the way we solve Syria can be the way we realize we can end all war. It is a major transformation, and will take a little time, but we may find we have much speedier progress than we ever imagined, once we finally start going in a completely non-warlike direction and see how good that can make thing, how much progress we have and happiness we achieve. So I was glad to see Gaga's performance of Applause from the VMAs since I missed them then watch Kerry say that we were going to continue seeking diplomatic solutions, and get the people involved, at te same time that he was making the strongest case for war. I don't think Obama “left him out there” as pundits suggest, I think he filled that role so Obama would not have to seem hawkish, which is the right way to be. I also don't think there is any merit to the idea that Obama's credibility is challenged by not striking immediately, or by asking congress to vote, because this is based on the idea that when he said “red line” he meant “you use chemical weapons and we will attack.” In fact, if you listen to what Obama said, he was saying that he was not considering military force but if chemical weapons were used it would be crossing a red line that would “change his calculus”, meaning change what he was considering. It does not force him to act a certain way, just says the options change if those weapons are used. Anyone who suggests Obama has to make good on a threat or something to save credibility are just mistaken and have some issue or are caught up in that bully mentality of might makes right. Gaga shows us and tells us that right makes right- “I don't need these 14k guns to win I’m a woman I insist its my right” I’m so glad she is here, doing such wonderful art, and it gives me such hope for the future, for what we are all becoming, and it is such a wonderful example I want to follow to do my part to get us there. I'm so respectful and appreciative of leaders who are strong enough to change things and make things happen without force. Syria will always go down as a great tragedy but maybe as the last great self-inflicted tragedy of humanity and maybe the silver lining is we can learn a way to continue to work together to solve all the worlds problems and then advance into a glorious future as united humanity. Like when Gaga was at the bottom and only had her denim jacket and bedazzler, and she had to learn to trust herself; we really seem, hopefully “seemed” now that this magical day has provided a break and change of course, on the verge of potential catastrophe. If we came back from the brink of that, but it required some powerful moments where people really considered and decided to trust some other people to do the right thing, well, like Gaga realizing she had to trust in herself, and the power it gave her to teach us all how to believe in ourselves, this belief in people, in ourselves and in others, is what will save the world. And I'm really glad to see the transformation taking place, even if it has seemed scary at times. Now I'm going to end this and smoke a bowl of this wonderful Grape Ape weed I just got more of, with all my magic and intention for a peaceful solution in Syria, for Assad to turn over all chemical weapons and set the standard for the world to take these, and eventually all weapons, out of the picture. I' so excited for Artpop, for the music, the way Gaga presents it, and for the cultural revolution it will enact and the magical transformation it will accomplish, and I'm also very pleased for the pathway to peace that will be coinciding with it, hopefully. She just said the new jar smells so good it smells like Holy Elixir so I guess its time to start it.

The Luckiest Monster and "Brittany Code" (glee refrence), Love

Ok, there are a lot of ways that I am not the luckiest little monster – I've never met Gaga, never been to a show, I don't think Gaga has had any personal awareness of my existence. She tweets and talks with plenty of people, has the closest affection for the fans lucky enough to meet her – one girl Jess who is my facebook friend has pictures of meeting her on numerous occasions, including one where her face is pressed right above Gaga's bra – and I am really jealous of monsters who have those connections and contacts with Gaga, but more I'm happy for them and hope and believe I will meet her and get to hang out with her, too. But I'm pretty sure she does not know who I am – I like to think she would contact me if she saw anything I did for her, and just I have not come into her personal awareness. Magical and spiritual and artistic awareness, yes, I know that she somehow mystically knows who I am, we are after the same art and magic. I “even” have this idea that much of the new album / performance at the iTunes festival was like a love letter to me, personally, even if she doesn't know who I am – the love she has for that perfect someone out there that she hasn't met yet ( she even said recently that the luckiest little monsters are the ones she hasn't met yet ) but I also expect other people feel this exact same way, that she is perfect for them, too and that she was and is singing to them. And of course she is singing to each and every one of us, as her audience and fans whom she loves, but you know what I mean, that special mystical feeling that she is singing “just” to you, in a way, that you - or hopefully me, what am I talking about! Ha ha – are the one she has been secretly waiting for, and now she is singing about wanting to meet you. Gaga did say she loves to hear our songs – I did not even have the intuition that she has heard mine yet but just thinking about it now, as if my songs were some of the ones she meant when she said she loved hearing them – well, it gives me butterflies – Oh! There is a rainbow outside, see if I can get a pic and be right back.... It was gone, but I first saw it while driving home and then turned onto my street, driving straight towards it, just as Gaga went into the key change “seen all the signs from above” line of “Fashion of His Love”.And the whole drive I was already composing this in my head, thinking about how lucky I am. At the time, realizing that the fact that I live a block from the easiest N/S corridor in the dankest city in America in itself is really sweet, just a very pleasant perk – the street part, with just a nice park between. But the Denver part, the Emerald City, well, it is just paradise here for weed, and I guess the scene keeps improving accordingly even though it kind of emerged from a cultural shithole, or at least vacuum. Still, that is fertile soil and rich empty space like a canvass to paint a wonderful cultural mural on, and with the great weed laws and stores and growers set up here, I think we will always be on the forefront of the weed liberation revolution and draw more cool people out here to improve our art and music and politics and culture in general. And of course I am really lucky for all the things in my personal life, from my family and work to my talents and some things I've already done but mostly for what I am about to do, working on and up to. But this was going to be the shortest gagablog ever, ha ha, so I'll get to the point. I believe in Gaga and all she does is come more and more true for me. It is the glorious fulfillment of magical faith and love, and love and trust in art as the Truth. This is why I try to say things about what Gaga will do before I hear or see them– I have some psychic and foresight gifts anyway, but with Gaga there is more than that. I still have not seen the whole iTunes show because it kept freezing and I had to keep refreshing it, chopping it up and missing crucial parts of the things she said between songs as well as lines of lyrics – I was really upset with iTunes, grateful for the show in the 1st place but resentful that I had to get all their software 1st to watch it instead of them just providing an easy link with an ad or something, then for it not to work well – especially after Gaga had almost cried at the GMA interview when she said the reason she did not want her songs leaked is because she wanted everyone to see the visual at the same time, the first time we heard the music and words – it makes sense to me, she talks about how we communicate with each other, and with her, through images and the images are an integral part of the art. But iTunes did not do Gaga justice, and I joked to hide my pain that I would have gotten a better slideshow from Twitter, since it was frozen every second. And I know it sounds lame to some people to hear it caused me pain to miss seeing the full, video, flowing performance and hear all the words, see all the expressions, everything, at the same time as all the other little monsters that were lucky enough to see it live – but of course even more had to work or go to school or missed it for whatever reason and had to watch it later - and I still get to watch it later and it be new to me, my own unique experience with her, and I like that, magically, for other reasons, too. But I was really mad that they messed it up, just because I know Gaga would prefer if more of us could see it all together. Still, I could tell how amazing the show was and I know it will be a big deal when I do watch it, probably soon. The whole basis of my belief in magic is (as Homer says “sorry Lisa, can't change the future”) that everything works together in magical ways and shows magical connections. They may usually be so complex or weird you can't notice them or would not likely do so, but of course people have things that happen to them they feel are “magical”,no matter how “seriously” they mean the term. And the thing about Gaga is she is magical, and I believe its the same kind of magical belief I have always had – I feel like I can prove the power and truthfulness of it by making comparisons or predicting things about what she will do or mean with new art. At least to anyone sympathetic to enough of these ideas. The main idea is that magic is everywhere, but somethings are so magical it stops being subtle or surprising and is constant, powerful, and to be expected instead. We are all capable of going to this magical state, like going over the rainbow to the magical fairyland of Oz – my book will be all about this. But Gaga is already there, and I have always sensed her to be true in the same way I sense anything to be true – something sure that comes true, the sure feeling of love when it is strong, the truth of beauty in nature and art. It really is Art at the heart of it all, Art is the core of magic, because while magical connections exist between everything Art makes special connections that can become the most powerful magic possible. I know that Gaga will always say it better than I do, in lyrics or an interview, and the best I will do is craft some useful exposition in which to quote her to prove a point, and while plenty of monsters know far more about what she has said, they are much better and more thorough in researching her, everything I have heard from her confirms and deepens my belief - “my religion is you” truly applies to how I feel about Gaga, because she is the form in which I see all my dreams and magical beliefs come true - and not just as a witness to her greatness, but like the rainbow that appeared as she sang the line “sign from above” it creates special magic in my life – and this is how I join her in the core of magic: even as a fan, paying attention to her would make more magical things happen in your life – I met a girl in Animal Crossing who likes Gaga but isn't crazy about her like me, I told her about my magical belief and tried to send her a letter in the game, and the next time I talked with her she said she got a free perfume in the mail from a company she shops with, a loyalty gift, and it was designed by Mark somebody (?) and he is connected to Gaga, either designs for her or she wears the same scent, some magical connection she felt like mentioning to me since she knew I love Gaga.. Next Simpsons is on, everyone is here to blaze one, be right back. Like I said, I trust that Gaga will say it better, and that many other monsters know much more of what she says than I do, but I know I have always felt the same spirit of truth and see it manifest the most in Gaga, because she is making the most powerful art and music and to me these are the things that form the future, they create the world. I see her as proving all of this to be true, and I can just watch and listen like everyone else and be satisfied that it is manifesting what I have always wanted, but I want to be involved, I want to make art that inspires Gaga the same way she has inspired me. That is why it is the core of magic, too, that runs through everything. Just like the girl who noticed something magical about getting that perfume just after meeting someone with magical belief in Gaga, just that little level of exposure, it increases the belief in magic. I have always believed in magic, years before Gaga emerged, but believing in it and seeing it come true through her, but most importantly how that makes me 'get involved” myself, well, you can feel that it is the heart of magic, of love – Art. Gaga will give us plenty of examples and it will get easier and easier to talk about art, love, magic, but even now when it is hard and my “shortest edition” is probably painfully long, well I have to go for it anyway because Gaga pleases me so much and inspires me so much (“Let him go Lou, this time he's not following his nose, he's following his heart.'- Wiggum “Sometimes I don't remember why you're chief, but I remember now!(sobbing)” Lou, in the background as I write this “That'll do snake, that'll doo” -Willie) I just can't resist. Well, this is as good a place as any to wrap this up. I'm mostly pleased to have everything so good, I love living in this weed paradise where the best dank is only 200/oz, delivered, and about to get cheaper and in stores everywhere, I love my lover and family, I love how my lover understands my love of Gaga as well as anyone, I guess, and would not min if Gaga wanted to borrow me whenever she wanted, I love how my art and music and writing are finally coming together, magically – as is my magic, come to think of it! Everything seems good to me, really like heaven as Artpop is coming out more and more and the world is getting magically and culturally better in response to it, along with it - it's “the Brittany Code” on Glee, now.... I think that proves my point. I was a little wrong about Miley/what's his name, rObin – she said he planned it, I still haven't seen it to decide for myself, I should not have taken the blogger's word that he looked uncomfortable before watching it myself, but I guess I wanted to see something “bad” or embarrassing happen to him – and that proves my point that even then, writing about trying not to, I still gave in to overshadowing and negativity -after all, Gaga said not to be negative about any artist, including Thicke. But I was also proven right that Gaga said we should not criticize Miley, she said pretty much what I knew she would say, as she always does, just better than I could imagine – but this is how art and magic come true, even wen you believe in them – like smoking weed, it's always good in a new, surprising way. I really love Gaga, she means so much to me, it is so hard to stay focused and keep it simple – I suppose I should focus more on her and Love/ART/magic and not worry about anything else quite as much as I do. I am lucky now, having broken my foot, that I could get medical care and I am now on crutches with a boot. I'm glad I can still work, and I have a vacation for ten days after this workweek, and I could feel bad that I can't run around as much while on vacation, or that it is a little cumbersome, but the truth is I was already planning and hoping to spend most of my free time working on writing, songs, art, all sorts of creative stuff – including publishing my book “Wendy the Witch School Drop Out” that I finished 7 years ago when I got this job and just have not been able to get back to publishing it ever since, and I'm going to write my book that I have been composing in my head for at least two years, a non-fiction book about Oz Magic, Gaga, technology, art, chaos, the future, and sex. I think I will put the gagablog on hiatus, mostly while working on that, but I wanted to make a short into/conclusion to it here, sorry if it was not that great. But I am reminded of Gaga when she was hurt and could only write and compose, and I hope that is how I will deal with this too – I never imagined I would be excited to break a bone. But I'm glad it really does more to force me to focus on my creative work, really creative stuff not just writing to get it out of my system because I have not done it enough for so long - but I love anything I do that focuses on Gaga, and I think I can get even more focused, more into my heart and the best art, I know it takes all of my skill as well as grace and magical improvement to do a picture of her, or song for her, with justice to her love and beauty- but I'm ready for it. Fondue for two just ended in which Brittany is using “the code” - it's that sort of thing, this Gaga at the core of everything, the artpop revolution (the song during commercial on glee sang “revolution” at the same time I wrote that, exactly) that I wanted to describe as turning something inside out – like (now a s'tick revolution” from maybelline) like a garment, a sequined dress. If reality, now, is like a sequined dress, turned inside out, so all we see is the threads and seams and batting and knots, etc, and its not too pretty, well Gaga is reaching down, to the bottom and pulling it to the top, and turning it inside out, revealing the true, paradise reality that has been hidden underneath, the glorious sequined dress now that it catches and reflects the light in millions of ways and tints. It is the same spirit you could call “The Holy Spirit”, that is finally renewing fuller goodness in the Catholic Church and the whole world through Pope Francis and “his” style. You could call it Buddha, because it is, too; well it is one. But I call it Gaga, it's easier for me, and like I said, since she says it the best, and as we hear more and share more of what we understand, and all come to understand love and magic and art better, it will be easier and easier for more and more people to understand these best and most wonderful “secrets” of life. I can't wait to explore more and apologize for getting so far ahead of myself. I need to make art, write, and focus, use all this magic for the best purpose. If this is the first time you've read the Gagablog I encourage and warn you about reading more- it's really long. This IS a short one. But skim over, click it randomly, see what you get- it is written magically, randomly, chaotically, with that sort of magic in mind, so it should work well that way. Or start at the “bottom” the first one, and read through chronologically – reading up (since more recent are placed above others in this format). I thought about, for the hell of it, publishing it after inverting it, to read as it was written, instead of backward. But the theories about “schizophrenia”, magic, seeing the future and seeing the current state from a future perspective, even as the commercial says “look both ways”, well, that works well for it being 'backward” in time, too. I'm just hoping this can work some magical way for you, just as it does for me, even if it does not “work” so well as magical writing. Maybe I will have gotten the wild, random, monster of typing out of my system so I can focus more on the Gaga art and songs and Gaga/Oz/magic book. I hope you enjoy them all, or a taste of any of them, and I hope they will be shared enough to eventually be shared with Gaga, so she can share my love for her the same way I’ve shared her love for us, for me, even if she does not know me yet. And even if we don't meet her, she inspires so many of us, hopefully we can find others who are inspired by her, too, and are our own personal Gagas, as I am lucky enough to have in my special, magical, witchy lover. They just did a “song about rainbows” intro on Glee, I should go out on that. Gaga, I love you!Monsters, Paws Up! More, and making more, and incredible, sense soon! Thanks! Oh, and as the Brittany Code episode that has been the background for this is wrapping up, she is giving a speech about how she never believed in herself before the Glee club. I was going to publish this and realized I had to add that I feel the same way – it is the love Gaga gives us that makes us feel so safe with each other to be supportive, and other little monsters are trhe most supportive people I have ever met, by far – it is like our family resemblence: love, support, encouragement, creativity, uniquness is what unites us – I love you all and especially you, Gaga, really especially you, I love uyou so much and your real hair is so beautiful, I need to be the best artist I can be to make a love letter to you as beautiful as Artpop is to all of us, to reflect my sequin of that love back to you, and I dream of meeting you, maybe in the Hall of Fame they are singing about – but I love you, I don't care where, ll see you here in the Emerald City or wherever you are, it will be all the more heaven to be there with you.